Dear Shay,

I wrote to you recently on depression. Well, I have good news. I found a job!!! They want me to start on Monday, Dec. 27th. I can hardly believe it. I have prayed to God and asked for his help and he has sent it. I have given thanks to him as well. Thank you also for praying for me. Sometimes I let myself get down in the dumps. And like you I have realized that taking my life would be a stupid thing to do. It's just that sometimes I still think about it. But, I also know I will never do it. God has told us to endure until the end. I made a promise to do this. We are here to learn and grow. I know this. It's just that my body and mind are weak and I'm doing the best to keep my spirit uplifted. I also want to learn to love again. Slowly, but surely I believe it will happen. There used to be a lot of hate and anger in my heart. And having so many problems in my life just didn't help matters. My sister Angela has told me time and again to give it all up to God. Learn to love myself and then I can love others. This is so true. And I'm so grateful for the humbling experiences I have gone through. I'm a bit stubborn and need to be directed on which way to go. I feel that I have a clearer mind and will pray for constant guidance. I have tons of bills to pay, need to find a new medical plan, and try to keep as healthy as possible. Wish me luck. And may God bless you abundantly. Thank you for all that you do.