Letter 21

Dear Shay -

First I want to say that your page is very uplifting. Being that at times I feel like I lose direction, the page about how to live life the good way really helps. I do have a question though: I honestly think some days that God keeps testing me and testing me, which I know helps me to learn and grow. At times I feel so empty though, the tests hurt so much, that some days I just want to throw in the towel and say the hell with it all. I'm a twenty one year old female, so obviously I do have tons of growing and learning to do. Its just at times, I feel so beat by all the learning processes. Why is it that I feel like I give my all to my friends, the people around me, but the second I need a simple hug, someone to tell me I can grow beyond pain and hurt, become a strong person, I can't seem to find anyone who can be there? I feel so frustrated with life some days. I need to keep a copy of the list of things to do to be a good person, because honestly, it kind of gave me some focus. Okay, well I just wanted to let you know that I really did enjoy your page and I did get to read all of it. It would be cool if you extended it more. Normally I am not a reading person, but I read everything. It was really interesting and thought provoking.

What you're lacking is inner peace, otherwise known as: the ability to be happy with life no matter what happens. Its the most valuable skill to have in your spiritual arsenal, next to the ability to love. However, the two are closely related, and I'll explain how.

When I'm going through my day, I spend quite a lot of time doing some specific things. First and foremost, I pray. I pray for everybody. I pray for the guy who cuts me off in traffic just as hard as I pray for my mother's health. Praying for people is a way of giving your love to others. I do it almost continuously. Another thing I do is thank people. I thank the elderly woman who opens a door for ME, instead of the other way around. I thank the sandwich shop attendant who puts extra avocado on my sandwich just because. I thank my mom when she gives me a hug. I thank the people who deserve it. I also tell people I love them. My friends never get tired of hearing me say that. They don't tell me they get tired of it, but I know its true anyway. If I don't see her in person, I call my girlfriend at least once a day to tell her I love her. I let the important people in my life know that I love them.

Its a very satisfying existence when you know that during the day you asked God to help about 20 or so people, that you thanked every single person who helped you during the day, and that some of your loved ones actually heard, "I Love You," come from your lips. Trust me, when you're doing these three staple LOVE activities, its extremely hard to worry about how hard life seems to be. When you have added these habits into the course of your normal daily activities, you will experience the PEACE you are searching for.

Also, it never helps to have some help. Look for a man in a leather jacket to help you out with your situation. Plus, I will be sending an angel to help lighten your load. Give this angel a hug every morning and she will be sure to give you any help you need on your quest to find better inner peace through the spread of love.

Love and Prayers, Shay