Dear Shay-
I am very religious and I know that I have a guardian angel. I would like to contact my angel, and learn more about angels. Also, I am a separated young mother of 4 year old twins. I live with my boyfriend who is very abusive emotionally. He used to hit me but has stopped. For some reason I cannot get away from him. I use to be the type of person who would leave a person if they did anything wrong. I am a pretty girl and know I can date a lot of different men. But I am addicted to him. I have a one year lease with him until next August. He bought me a car that is under his name. I know I am living in sin. But I believe GOD can heal any relationship and that is what I am waiting for. I don't know what GOD wants me to do. Stay with him, or find someone else? What do I do? My parents are very upset that I stay with him. Why can't I leave? Is GOD teaching me a lesson for my sins?
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I didn't know what love was for a great part of my life. I knew about the kind of love I had for my friends, and my parents. The "relationship" love always eluded me though. I thought I had been in love a couple of times, but I was never sure. Then I met a woman this year who DEFINED it for me. And I'll define it for you the way she defined it for me: Love isn't physical, its PURELY and COMPLETELY an EMOTION. There is absolutely nothing physical about love. Sex has nothing to do with love whatsoever. Love is more about happiness than anything else. If you're just happy to be in the same ROOM as that person, to COMMUNICATE in ANY WAY with that person, to have thoughts of that person go through your MIND, and you wish that those thoughts wouldn't STOP....THAT IS LOVE!
And there are also many ways to know that someone doesn't love you. If someone is abusive in ANY WAY to you, and then tells you that they love you, then they are using you to fill a void in your life. It doesn't matter where the void came from or why its there, if you're being USED to fill it, then you are letting yourself be under-realized as a person.
I understand that you're financially tied to this person. Contracts are easily made and easily broken. If you have a good enough reason to leave, which I think you do, then do what I'd do, just straight up TALK TO A LAWYER.
Leave the boyfriend for the three reasons I've outlined: He doesn't love you, he's using you, and it IS possible to get out of the obligations you have to him.
Here's what's going on at the religious front. GOD loves you and wants what's best for you. He knows what's best for you and always lovingly nudges you in that direction. However, we, as humans, sometimes think that we definitely know what is best for us. Being on this planet gives us a bad perception about many things. Part of our goal while we're alive is to get rid of the bad perception and instead align ourselves with the correct one. Its all part of our soul's healing process. In short, see the boyfriend for the loser he is, and see yourself as what you are, a soul who was created to love and to be loved.
If what you're experiencing isn't love, then its not what God wants for you and he will continually tell you that through messages and through your guardian angel. And about her...
I see your guardian angel as a beautiful, curly haired woman in her early twenties. She seems to me to be kind of a college type, and for some reason she chews a lot of gum and blows a lot of bubbles. She's athletic, as well. To get in touch with your guardian angel, go jogging. In your head, ask questions regarding LOVE while you're running. The MOMENT you think of an answer to one of those questions, and you KNOW in your heart that it is correct. I mean you KNOW that its right, beyond a shadow of a doubt, then you've taken the first step to communicating with your guardian angel.
------>Remember now, you've got angels working for you, 24-7. Fear is gone and Love is here. Believe that, and your life is...heaven...
Love and Prayers, Shay