Letter 53

Dear Shay,

I always look on the web for spiritual gifts. Today, I found yours. I am a native American. Right now a lot is happening in my life. I am reading all the letters and receiving many blessings and messages. I can feel your love and concern, that is why I am writing to you. There are a few issues I would like to discuss with you.

First, within the past 4-5 years I have lost both my dads. I miss them but feel their love a lot, lately I haven't though, and would just like to know if they are still here. Usually, I dream about them and they are always together. Lately, I have felt my real dad, (not my step-dad) trying to tell me, do you know what if anything. In regard to my fathers, I would like to ask you if you can ask them to help me accomplish a few things.

Second, I would like to know who my angels are and how I might communicate with them.

Third, I sometimes feel like the Lord is not with me. I feel alone and afraid. Mostly, alone. I am a mother to 5 children. I worry a lot, I work full time and have gone to the community college for a few years. I was raised in our faith, and though I have felt the Lord's presence many times, more oft than not I don't. I guess I would like to know how better I can communicate with the Lord, and how I can know that He is hearing my prayers. It is financially difficult or rather very difficult financially. I try to live and let God do the work in His time, but it is not so easy when I need to pay bills and provide for my children, today. I am constantly thinking and I have alot of guilt because I have drank a lot raising my children. Though now I have a better handle on my addictions, I still feel like I have not done a lot . I would like you to pray for my children, they are good kids and have gone with out for a long time. They deserve so much, Shay.

Fourth, I am preparing to move to another town. I am resigning and going back to school, to a university. I am very excited and see this as the opportunity to improve my financial situation. I have felt this is something the Lord wanted Am I right? The plan is I will take the 3 girls and the 2 boys will stay with their Dad. Is this best for my sons? Also, I will be separating my kids. This is not easy for me to leave them, But I do not want to fail, and with 5 kids in the house, it can create a lot of chaos.

Fifth, Mr. Shay, (thank you for letting me tell you "everything" ), The biggest problem I have now is that my kids' dad has not been working and not seem to have a "life plan". He isn't working and doesn’t want to in the future. We had a bad fight over this. Over the 18 years that we have known each other, he has constantly left us with out a word for months and I could never understand this. Why does he do this? How could he do this to his kids? It has been very hard living with this, and it is always in the back of my mind that he is capable of doing this. I brought my family together because I want my children to know and love their dad. My folks separated when we were very young, so I did not grow up with a father. I knew my dad loved us, and we were blessed with a wonderful step father, but I still felt the loss. That is why I have hung on. Over time, I have felt myself change, and I try to hang on for my family. I love him, but he isn't what leads me anymore, it is my children. He has a drinking problem that seems to go deeper than my addictions. I have always been the one to hold things together, to give him love and hope. I think its because I am stronger, but then again I never had the choice of not being strong. He is a kind man and I try not to hold against him what he does when he’s drunk, but I don't always succeed. He has hurt me a lot.

My immediate problem right now is that I need him home. During this transition time my family needs security and stability. He loves his children and his children love him. The utilities are going to be shut off, and my salary just can’t do it all. He is not working right now. I can’t do it all. Well, I suppose I can but I just don't have the energy or frankly, the money. I'm trying to get things ready so that I can leave. Can you help him see the light? Can you help me with the bills and school? Can you tell me if I am on the right track? Can you ask my dads to help me to get where I’m going?

Lastly, I need help with a bank loan for my house. If you could help me with that I would really appreciate it.

I know this is a lot to ask. Could you pray or ask the Lord and my dads to help me? Can you give me some advice? Thank you!

Letter #2:

Mr. Shay, Its me again, I just sent a letter to you. A long one. I am the native American. I forgot to ask you, if I can ask the Lord to give me both house and school? Do I have the right? Also, is it ok to ask for prosperity so I can better take care of my kids? I agree nothing is more important than happiness and love, but realistically, kids still need clothes and it does take a certain degree of money to survive in. Please thank the Lord for all he had done for me, which is a lot. Thank him for my kids, my loved ones, He always puts lovely meals on the table, even though I can't even afford groceries. Thanks again.

Letter #3:

Has our lives been awful because we are not legally married? Why is it life has always been a struggle?

One thing I need you to understand before I say anything else is that YOU ARE NOT BEING PUNISHED. God is not punishing you for never being legally married. He's not in the punishment business. He's in the forgiveness business. So, put that thought out of your mind because its not true.

You have the right to ask for anything you'd like. There is no request too small or too large for the Lord and his angels. Ask for prosperity, ask for a nice home, ask for anything. Everything will be given to you in due time. However, there IS a rule to praying. Never ask for negative things. When I say that, I mean that you should never ask the Lord to do something that would hurt others. Its okay to ask for things that you want or need, but never ask the Lord to intervene in someone else's life in a negative way.

To utilize your deceased relatives, and trust me, they want you to ask them for help, just follow these simple instructions. Grab a picture of them, hold on to it, look into their eyes, and ask for what you want. They will do their absolute best to help you with your requests. You'd be amazed what kind of power your deceased loved ones have, but keep in mind that all power and all Love originally comes from the Lord. He sends His Love through all kinds of people and angels, but all of the Love and all of the power truly comes from Him. As for some advice…

If I was to have a child, and I Loved the child with all my heart and soul, I would not put that child in to the care of someone who was unreliable. He/She could be my mom or dad, or one of my siblings, or my spouse, but if they were not trustworthy, as your "husband" has proven to be, then there is no way I would ever leave my child with them; not to spend time with, not to spend the night with, and DEFINITELY not to live with for an extended amount of time. So, before you leave your sons with your "husband", think twice. There are a few things more important than finances, and children are one of them.

I will be asking Jesus to send you a cadre of angels. One for you, one for your husband, and one for your children. They will guide all of you in the right direction. I'll also get in touch with your "fathers" and let them know what you've told me.

Relax. Its going to be okay. You're a powerful woman. Use the gifts that God gave you.

Love and Prayers, Shay