Well, the first thing I must point out is that we are all in that boat. We all have no idea what the future holds, nor whether there will be a tomorrow. The promises of worldly life are fleeting, and the best things in our life can disappear at a moment’s notice. So what we must hold on to must not be of this world. It must be something that transcends human existence, something that overpowers all of the problems that we experience. It must be something that is above and beyond every single thing that we see, hear, and feel. We experience this power through the emotion of Love, but it is definitely more than Love, it is the ability to see past today, the ability to see past the negative, the ability to see something in nothing. Studying the life of Jesus and believing in Him connects us with it, but to really understand it we must delve deep inside of ourselves and begin to ask questions. Ask yourself things such as, “Why am I worrying?”, “Why can’t I enjoy life?”, “How can I change my life for the better?”, “How can I feel good again?”
You know what the big answer is? Do you want to know how to truly touch God? HAVE FUN!!! Go out and do the things that make you happy! Enjoy yourself! In human life we tend to bog ourselves down with too much crap…too many responsibilities, too many material expectations. Take some time each day to PLAY! Be a kid again! Let joy abound! DO THIS EVERY DAY!!!! Children have the world much more figured out than we do. They Love unconditionally, take the moment for what it is, and don’t worry about the future. So, at least for a little while, be like a kid each day and do what you enjoy.
I will be praying for you. I have been in your type of situation before and I understand how hard it is when you can’t get your mind off of suicide. What helped me more than anything was stress reduction. I cut everything out of my life that was bringing me down and I focused purely on enjoying myself. Not only is this necessary, but it also brings you closer to God. His Love is indeed joy. And for humans joy comes from having fun, in whatever form it takes. So go out there and party! Love is a celebration!
Love, Shay
