Letter 79

Dear Shay,

I really need your help with something. Two years ago I found my mother dead from emphysema. Finding her was the worst thing that could have happened to me. I felt like my world was destroyed! I felt so alone. Then, two weeks later my only sister and her baby were murdered.

I am having so many problems dealing with all of this. I feel like at times I can't cope with life. I stay so sad and depressed. I wish I could really get some closure so that I can be happy and go on with my life.

I hear doors slam in my home, but no one is there. My doorbell rings, but no one is there. Is it possible that mom or sis knows how unhappy I am and they're trying to let me know they are still with me?

God only knows how much I miss them. I know I am living, but I still feel dead inside. I hope that they are still with me, even though they are not here physically.

Could you please email me back? I am in desperate need. I have thought of suicide over and over and I feel like the devil is winning in my life!

Hope I hear from you!

They are constantly around you. When Loved ones die, they spend TONS of time around those they have left behind. We’re just not always able to see them because of the veil of distortion that somehow separates this world from the next.

Dreama, you have GOT to get some help. Your work here is not done yet. There are still people that need your Love and are waiting for someone like you to come into their lives. The idea that “the devil is winning you over” is an illusion! You’re just having trouble seeing past it! The fact is that you are still here, you’re still able to help others, and you are still a Loving person! This depression that you are in can be stopped! All it takes to get past it is some prayer to the Lord and some professional help!

I have been in your situation. I have thought that everything was coming to an end. I was at the end of my rope and went through every day constantly thinking of suicide. Then the Lord came to me and explained that there was much more for me to do. There were people that needed me. I still had a very special job in this life, and it was far from over. And that was a blessing! He was granting me a life where I would get to help others and Love people that needed Love! BUT, it did take some medical help for me to do it. I AM on medication. But I don’t mind it at all! It helps me to do what I was meant to do. So don’t hesitate to walk into the doctor if you are feeling suicidal.
OR, call 1-800-SUICIDE. They can direct you towards the help you need.

Remember that the Lord can always use Loving folks like yourself. He is depending on people like you to touch those that are in need. The devil is not winning you over. If you have come to this page, the devil is nowhere close to you and probably never will be.

I suggest you say a prayer. Ask Jesus to intervene in your life and help you in the way that only He can. One simple prayer, asking Him to give you the hand you need, will do more good than ANYTHING else you could possibly do. AND I will be praying for you as well. I will also ask your angel to intervene.

Love, Shay